Last week was pretty difficult all around. It felt like it might have been a week-long flare. Since I'm new at this withdrawal thing, I'm only starting to get a sense of what a flare is like for me. It could have been a mini-flare. I hope not! I hope that's the worst it gets!
I spent most of the week in bed, as it was difficult and very irritating to move my body even in the smallest or slightest motion. I worked and taught piano lessons when I was feeling strong, but took time off when necessary (and tried not to feel bad about it).
Emotionally, it was probably the worst that I've felt since starting withdrawals. I was depressed pretty much all week. It's not that I wasn't feeling hopeful about the future--because I am hopeful and I know that I'm on the road to healing. It wasn't that I felt sorry for myself, either--everyone in the world has issues and I don't have any feelings of "Why me?". As it was, I barely felt like speaking or thinking, even. I just wanted to be a vegetable--alive, but not required to do much of anything, other than exist.
There were, however, a few good moments. On Friday evening (when the following photos were taken), my wonderful friend Kelly came over with her husband and 2 girls for a visit. For some odd reason, I felt like I was able to cook--so Christopher & I made the dinner together--and everyone enjoyed a nice meal together. It was a nice distraction amidst a difficult week.
Then my parents drove in from Pittsburgh and stayed with us all weekend. They helped with some things around the house (we just moved to a new home last month and still have lots of settling to do). Their help was so appreciated and it was nice to have them here for a few days. I felt bad because I wasn't in the best of spirits during their visit, but they're my parents and thankfully they love me anyhow. ;) Thanks, family!
FRIDAY, 1/31 (4 days ago)
In daylight. The camera made my skin look smoother than it actually was, but you can still see the pinkness covering my face/neck/chest. You can see a few spots of normal skin coloration (particularly on my nose, ear and along my hairline).
Later that same evening.
SUNDAY, 2/2 (last night):
Much smoother and temporarily stronger. Hope it lasts for a few days?!
My left hand and arms, however, look a little bit worse.
This was last week:
This was last night:
On a sidenote, I've discovered that I enjoy tying my hair up in a scarf. Not only does it make me feel more comfortable--no hair coming down and touching my neck or face!--but it also covers up my hair (that is absolutely desperate for a cut) in a cute way!